Random Thoughts



I still have a love for everyone I've ever loved. There is a part of everyone I've ever loved that I miss. Just like I've taken a piece of everyone I've ever been close to and added them to myself, like a phrase, a gesture, a habit, a belief, and in some cases, a lesson. These parts are what I think about when I think back on past connections. I tend to let the negative pats go. I don't forget them and I try to avoid them when making bonds going forward, but I don't forget the good times.

It's funny that everyone that I've ever come across has left a permanent mark on my life, and I truly never know when your memory will return; maybe I'll take a train ride today and see something that reminds me of a customer I meet while I was a carpet cleaner. 

Just some random Thoughts



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